WHAT DOES SHE REALLY WANT FROM ME?

GOING OUT FOR FOUR MONTHS SO FAR....

Jenny has been thankful for the time we had together since Labor Day weekend. We always try to ennact or reproduce our first encounter by Coming to have our religious cup of coffee in here, at this corner, where we met, and this way we could see where we were really heading into.

"Okay hun," she said all happy as she sipped her fresh coffee. "So far we have 'clicked it' in bed, and I didn't expect to learn from you Joseph. That formula attacked my whole senses from the beginning," Jenny said it that way so anyone around us would mind his/her own businness. "I loved your mom's cooking since Thanksgiving and you did your Lasagna just like my own granny," I responded with such a bliss.

"I want to Thank you for these four months Joey. I had my moments and, you know it; you took so well my crap that I was carrying from past relationships. I was hurt so much that I wanted to act and treat you like any of those losers.." I put my hands on her lips before she finished and said, "Jenny Sweet, I took my time and your eyes were telling me so much, and from then on, I carried away my own plan..." She didn't let me finish either. "But you were listening to me from the very beginning and never hinted me to get me in bed that very first day we met. That was telling a lot from you, being a man... Like any of these guys outside."

She knew me also and started to rub her lips with the lipstick I really loved so much. "Jenny, you see how you want to look beautiful for me, and I didn't have to tell you..?" She laughed and nodded. "Oh Joey, did you programm me to do all these? Just kidding babe. I think a woman has to stay put and learn how to always be attracted to her mate...and you know what I mean Joey, huh?"

REWIND TO THE WEEKS BEFORE THANKSGIVING...

I was happy that she did really change. From the second day she wanted to control me and even checked my text messages..and little by little she just read my friends technical messages from work, and eventually she didn't mind it at all. Actually she was working and developing a new her, just for me. Her Pilate's were a killer, but she wanted to be in shape for me, her man, lover and the one to be discovered. There were nights that she would cry next to me when we were sleeping, and I asked her why? "Is a woman's thing Joey. How can I explain it to you? We are afraid of losing a man and we have our mind telling us to be prepared and...," Her tears just rolled down and embraced me hard and shaking told me, "If you ever want to be free, just let me know....I love you so much that, hum, for love, I would let you go...and let you find the woman that 'might' give you more love than any one, but if you do... remember this... that I have loved..I mean, I do love you endlessly and I will just drift away in my own contentment, and live from these beautiful months that I have spent with you..." She kept kissing my forehead and trying to read my eyes and, I just told her from my own heart, "You don't have to worry Jenny. I helped you to heal and in the meantime I did reprogram a woman just for me. I never told you this, but everyday I was praying for you to get rid of that stupid past" She was smiling and crying and Just kept weeping like a little girl. "Oh Joey, would you stop it!? Now I feel like I've found myself anew thanks to you, and...I want you to feel my heart... here, see? It means that I'm completely in tune with your ways and your own perspective of this relationship...and"

BACK TO THE STARBUCKS CAFE...

My Jenny was looking to the people outside, and said to me: "I'm glad I'm not lost outside with the world and I feel so... I feel so lucky in being here with you Joey." We gave ourselves a sweet kiss and kept our "healing chat." as sacred for our relationship to grow stronger. Our coffee break from Life...!!